I have done a LOT of learning this past few years...., many humbling experiences.... still a little confused though.....
I have spent the majority of my life trying to 'take over the world'...measuring my own success by my position in life...business/career and what I can do for/give to/provide for the people I love..trying to be the best I can be. But recently...things/my views have changed...kinda...still struggling through the transition.
I am finally starting to realize a new level of success in these slow times that has been staring me in the face all these years but I could not/did not have the time to see....HOME, the people that love me, being there for/with them...realizing the most important thing I can give them is me.
I do not have my head in the clouds though...as much as I would love to live on love it does not pay the bills...so what the ...k am I going to do now? I spent 15 years in my career that took me everywhere but home and then the past 2 as Owner/Operator trying to stay at home (my dream)...but it's just not working, the work is not here... So now what? Back on the road? A career change? Change to what? I spent 17 years becoming one of the best in my line of work. :wallbash:
....I started young though so therefore lucky for me I am still young hitting this point in my life (33)
A lot of people are believing in me/depending on me and if I fail...well I just can't.....
I am lacking in sleep...really bad, a lot weighing on my mind...on the line. I'm sure I'm talking to much but I'm also sure I'm not alone in this struggle within.
....to be continued if there is enough interest, I'm done putting myself out there for now...feel free to add to the story...
I am going to go and TRY to sleep now. Looking over at Tina resting peacefully, gotta go snuggle her
For those that know me (been on CT a while now even though I don't post often) Things have really changed since my last post http://www.contractortalk.com/f11/y...t-you-really-married-58374/index2/#post676467
I have spent the majority of my life trying to 'take over the world'...measuring my own success by my position in life...business/career and what I can do for/give to/provide for the people I love..trying to be the best I can be. But recently...things/my views have changed...kinda...still struggling through the transition.
I am finally starting to realize a new level of success in these slow times that has been staring me in the face all these years but I could not/did not have the time to see....HOME, the people that love me, being there for/with them...realizing the most important thing I can give them is me.
I do not have my head in the clouds though...as much as I would love to live on love it does not pay the bills...so what the ...k am I going to do now? I spent 15 years in my career that took me everywhere but home and then the past 2 as Owner/Operator trying to stay at home (my dream)...but it's just not working, the work is not here... So now what? Back on the road? A career change? Change to what? I spent 17 years becoming one of the best in my line of work. :wallbash:
....I started young though so therefore lucky for me I am still young hitting this point in my life (33)
A lot of people are believing in me/depending on me and if I fail...well I just can't.....
I am lacking in sleep...really bad, a lot weighing on my mind...on the line. I'm sure I'm talking to much but I'm also sure I'm not alone in this struggle within.
....to be continued if there is enough interest, I'm done putting myself out there for now...feel free to add to the story...
I am going to go and TRY to sleep now. Looking over at Tina resting peacefully, gotta go snuggle her
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